Happy Wednesday everybody! I hope it is a good one for you. These last two days have been filled with many new experiences and a whole range of emotions, all of which where kickstarted yesterday morning when I my laptop broke. Rather than just unceremoniously dying, the lad chose to make a show out of it and quite literally went off in smoke. You should have seen the look on my face.
Luckily, the situation is under control and I am the proud owner of a MacBook now that I fully intend to keep around for the next couple of years. In the beginning, I was unsure whether it would be a good idea to purchase a new computer in Norway financially – after all, this is a notoriously expensive country. But some research quickly showed me that laptops here wouldn't be more expensive than in Germany, so I just went ahead.
What amazes me the most, though, is how calmly I stayed during this experience: Two weeks ago, I would probably have completely freaked out. But as I was wandering through town today, passing the lake in the Byparken, I was struck by how utterly content I suddenly felt.
I have mentioned it a bit on the blog before, but moving to Norway was hard for me. So hard in fact, that there were times in the beginning when I wanted to just leave and go back to my comfortable life in Germany again. Norway was gorgeous and I got to see so many sides of its natural beauty, but my heart wasn't open. I couldn't appreciate my surroundings.
But things have gotten better. I have gone out and thrown myself into building up a new social life. I have walked through the town and noticed the small things. I have stopped caring so much about what other people think. And most of all, I finally have the feeling that this city isn't so foreign anymore. I feel like I begin to know this place.
And for all of that I am very grateful.
I am grateful that I get to live in Norway. I am grateful that my family is always there for me, even if they're in another country. I am grateful for the days the sun is shining and grateful for the days when she's not, but I haven't forgotten to bring an umbrella. I am grateful for finding a great health food and a beautiful Asian store. I am grateful that I get to visit my boyfriend in London later this month.
There truly are so many things to be thankful for, but I know firsthand that it can be hard sometimes to see that. When we're feeling sad, we often don't see the whole picture. We choose to focus on the bad and forget that there's always light somewhere. Most of all, we forget that it won't always stay like this, that the times will change again.
Today, I realized that there will always be rough times. And that's okay. Life will never be all flowers and unicorns and sometimes we will feel bad. But having a sad day every once in a while doesn't mean that we can't leave a happy life. If you want your life to be bright sunshine every single day and think you cannot attain happiness unless that happens, you are setting yourself up to failure.
The art is to keep positive and Linking up with Erika even if there are clouds on the horizon and to know – deep down in your heart – that you will experience the sun again. Sorry for the kitschy metaphors, but I couldn't just couldn't help myself. Accept life with its ups and downs and a feeling of content will start to grow in you.
Now that's something to be grateful for.
On a fully unrelated topic: I am going to attempt to restore files from my old laptop's hard drive over the next couple of days. I don't think (or rather I sincerely hope) the hard drive is broken, but all the pictures I took this summer are on there (and nowhere else...), so I feel kind of apprehensive. If they were gone, I would feel as if the summer was taken away from me – is that a crazy photographer feeling or normal?
Linking up with Erika